Devotion.

Alright, so... the reason why I started this whole blog was mainly to do devotions and such, NOT to whine about pointless crap, and as I've been reading through my past few entries, that is exactly what I've done. haha. leave it to me to go COMPELTELY off track.

Anyway. So today, has been a pretty good day so far... it's nice outside. and Palm Reader by 3eb is slowly but surely becoming my favorite song to drive to with the windows down. I figured maybe doing a little devotion would make my heart a little lighter, and help the day get better. Sooo here we go!

This devotion is EXACTLY what I need to write about.

Living Without Regret

"Many people stay trapped in the past. There is only one thing that can be done about the past, and that is forget it. When we make mistakes, as we all do, the only thing we can do is ask God's forgiveness and go on. Like Paul, we are all pressing toward the mark of perfection, but none of us has arrived. I spent many years hating myself for each of my failures. I had not yet learned that God was pleased with JUST my faith. In Hebrews 11:6 we read, "But without faith it is impossible to be pleasing to Him." Even when we make mistakes and waste precious time as a result of those mistakes, being upset when we could be enjoying life, it is useless to continue being miserable for an extended period of time because of the original mistake. Two wrongs never make anything right. If you made a mistake twenty years ago or ten minutes ago, there is still nothing you can do about it except ask for forgiveness, receive it, forget the past, and go on. There may be some restitution you can make to an individual you hurtl; and if that is the case, by all means do so. But the bottom line is that you still must let go of the past in order to grasp the future. Until you do so, you will not enjoy life the way God intended."


Hmmm, yeah... that definitely hit home. Recently I made a mistake, that I thought I had learned and dealt with two years ago. But apparently, I didn't learn my lesson then, so I partially screwed up something wonderful by making the same mistake. Youve gotta learn somehow. Two wrongs may not make a right, but two learned mistakes in a row definitely do... haha. But the past few weeks, a month even, Ive been beating myself up for what Ive done wrong and what I couldve done to make it right. But, there's absolutely nothing I can do about it now. That time is gone and unfortunately will never come back again. All I can do is learn, and REALLY learn this time, and not make the same mistake again next time.

All day I run through my mind the possibilities and scenarios that could make it different, but thats just not how it works. You'll drive yourself insane doing that. That's not what God wants me to be doing at all... He wants me to be pressing forward, learning from that mistake and not worrying myself with whats gonna happen/what couldve happened. He's got that all under control anyway. His plans will always prevail no matter what story I make up in my head.

My distrust of people does not root from people themselves... It roots from my distrust in God. Why that is, I have no idea. I was talking with a friend a few days ago and she said "you dont trust Gods creation, because you dont trust the Maker..." I was like, holy crap...
she's right. Its true. It felt like I had just taken a bullet. Imagining how it made God feel that I just straight up dont trust Him... If i did, I'd not try to take things into my control so much. Id not question, assume, accuse... id let everything just simply be and KNOW and TRUST that it will allllll work out, the way its supposed to. no matter what! no matter what suspicions are in my head. Man. What a revolutionary discovery.

So, there you have it. My heart on a... blog. haha. I am no good at holding things in. It feels better to write it all out. I hope that you guys can take something from this too.

And Jeremiah 29:11.... "I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. "
man, what a promise. that He has plans for me, for a future... not to harm me. I have absolutely nothing to worry about. All I've gotta do is keep my faith, even just a little, even at times when it seems impossible... because God is sovereign and will always come through for me. And He has been. He's been so precious to me these past few days... making me feel SUPER loved by little things He's surrounded me by. I know the road of trusting completely isnt gonna be easy, but I've gotta get there somehow... What kinda life would I be missing out on if I didnt?

When you love, you never lose.

Trust.

And let things happen, naturally, the way they are supposed to.

Don't rush anything.

God has His perfect timing.

<3, Bonn.



<3, Bonn