This whole week has been so...refreshing. It's brought me back to life in a way. I was stuck in a rut. I get in those a lot. That's the thing about me.
This past week has brought me back to that loving place. Loving life and the small intricate details that go along with it. I officially turned in my application to GCSU yesterday. Totally unplanned. I was meaning to only finish one of the two short essays, but I was in the unexplainable dreamy state of writing, so I kept going...and going...and going. And voila! Two finished essays, revised, edited, and ready to send in. Clicking the submit button made my heart race. It just feels a bit unreal. The whole really transitioning into the next level, stage, whathaveyou, of life feeling. It's really happening. I'm stepping out. Now I've got a month or so to be walking out on that tight rope, ready to lose my balance and fall at any minute. Here's hoping.
It was crazy, because, during prayer today after realizing how much it's going to cost me (hopefully not) to actually go to this school, I was praying feverishly to God. "How am I gonna pay for this? I'll be damned if I pay THAT much for a two year education...I'm not gonna put that on myself, better yet my dad. That burden. There's just no way in hell." In the middle of all of this I felt something rising up quickly, about to reveal itself...and I kept going...and sure enough:
"Brittani. I've got this."
I know You do, God. But you're gonna have to remind me of it everyday. And I know You will. But will You give me the ears to listen? And the eyes to see? I sure have a bad habit of hearing and seeing what I want to, ya know...
Coffee is brewing and I've got a few lists to make out before work this evening.
Good day to you. <3
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