Hello, clarity.

First of all... Let me just tell you how I am freaking out, blog.


I have a color wheel due today at 12pm, which is not finished... This would be my own fault considering I FORGOT that I left my paint sheets in suzannes car. I've been trying to get in touch with Suz but she has mono, therefore she is sleeping like a bebe. :( Which makes me sad, for suzanne, and myself... because I will not have a color wheel for my teacher today, and because she is still sick. Ugh. to go to class, or not go to class... that is the question.


Secondly, and most importantly... I feel as if I've found out a secret today. A secret crucial and so essential to my life... which, most of you will think, is a no brainer.


I did something I've been meaning to do for so so long now, but never found/made the time to do. I talked to God this morning... not just talked, reeeally talked. I mean, poured out kinda talk... and I found that, dun dun dun, it gave me the strongest sense of clarity that I've ever had. *sigh* what have I been missing out on, all this time? Talking to God in the mornings gets me ready for my day in more ways than one. It puts whats most important in the front of my mind... shew. I'm such a dumb girl sometimes. but anyway, that's my new obsession... I wanna start getting up earlier to actually spend time in scripture. *crosses fingers* Here's to hopin' that happens. No, actually... here's to MAKING that happen, no matter what.


So, I finished Blue Like Jazz last night... and it blew me away. The end really packs a punch. I looove the endings of books like that, because the last chapter is like a crazy good summary of the whole book. The ending of Captivating I could read over and over again everyday. It's that good. shew... Now I need a new book to read. Actually, I should probably just re-read Cold Tangerines. That book makes me smile everytime I open and close it. But Blue Like Jazz, is such a great book for people to read... It gives such a, errr, what is the word I'm looking for... ew. I'll settle for likeable. It gives such a likeable approach to Christianity. Its not a, here's what you're doing wrong, here's 10 ways to fix it kinda book. It's a book that just so personable and relateable. The ideas represented are ideas that everyday boys and girls can relate to/resonate with. He really breaks it down and makes it approachable. Donald Miller keeps it simple... like it should be. There's my book review for today, and I don't even think it was a very good one... anyway. I used a lot of 'able' words in that. hahaha.




one hour and 20 minutes until class... still haven't decided what to do.





Communication is key... to everything. I'm realizing that more and more everyday thanks to you. The sun shines brighter and bigger than before, and everything is just so enhanced. so blessed.





I wish I wouldve brought my headphones, so I could be listening to music to ease my mind. Mannn. I always say I'm gonna remember right before I fall asleep. haha but I never do... I also had this great idea to throw a poptart in the toaster and fill a thermos up with milk before coming to school so I could have my breakfast on the way. That didn't happen either...

I would do anything to see Ryan Adams... and I mean, ANYTHING. ugh. Maybe I could ask dad for an eeearly birthday present?! haha 2 months 2 early... no big deal, right?! :) I would probably freak out and cry like I did when I saw Copeland, better yet when I met Aaron Marsh. Then it was excuseable though because I was like 17... now I'm 21 and I'd probably, definitely do the same! haha he's just so great...man.

I had a date with Jesus lastnight, and this is what it looked like:






laugh all you want. baths are my escape. for real.... they are another example of when I gain clarity. lastnight I just chilled in the dark, with 12 candles that didnt have enough wax to be burning, and I just let it all pour out to God... Its so so rewarding when you know and feel that He is listening. after that bath, I havent felt that good/beautiful/sure/ready in weeks.
what's your escape?






I need Sarah here to do my bump! I need to get bumped. I need to bump it up. bump it out. yaknow, whatever.

Ok. This is just rambling... shew. Sorryyyy if you were looking for something lifechanging. haha.
I hope you're smiling.



color wheels & clarity,
Brittani